直面昔日恋人，分手后与前任的第一次亲吻
字幕摘录
| 时间 | 英文 | 中文 |
|---|---|---|
| 0:00 | I thought I was going to marry him. | 我以为我要嫁给他 |
| 0:01 | He blackmailed me. | 他敲诈了我 |
| 0:01 | He cheated on me. | 他骗了我 |
| 0:03 | My body is not good enough for you. | 我的身体不够适合你 |
| 0:05 | I don't think it had to be this way. | 我觉得不该是这样 |
| 0:09 | You have my stick. | 你拿着我的棍子 |
| 0:11 | I can't help but love you. | 我忍不住爱你 |
| 0:13 | Do you think there's a chance we could get back together? | 你觉得我们能重聚吗? |
| 0:19 | Thanks to you guys for sponsoring this video. | 感谢你们赞助了这段视频。 |
| 0:21 | My name is Audrey and I am 25 years old. | 我叫奥黛丽 我25岁了 |
展开字幕全文（513 条）
| 序号 | 英文 | 中文 |
|---|---|---|
| 1 | I thought I was going to marry him. | 我以为我要嫁给他 |
| 2 | He blackmailed me. | 他敲诈了我 |
| 3 | He cheated on me. | 他骗了我 |
| 4 | My body is not good enough for you. | 我的身体不够适合你 |
| 5 | I don't think it had to be this way. | 我觉得不该是这样 |
| 6 | You have my stick. | 你拿着我的棍子 |
| 7 | I can't help but love you. | 我忍不住爱你 |
| 8 | Do you think there's a chance we could get back together? | 你觉得我们能重聚吗? |
| 9 | Thanks to you guys for sponsoring this video. | 感谢你们赞助了这段视频。 |
| 10 | My name is Audrey and I am 25 years old. | 我叫奥黛丽 我25岁了 |
| 11 | Who are you doing this video with? | 你和谁拍这个视频? |
| 12 | I'm doing this shoot today with my ex-boyfriend. | 我今天和我的前男友一起拍这个 |
| 13 | My ex-girlfriend. | 我的前女友,我认识她 |
| 14 | Angela, she is my ex. | 安吉拉,她是我的前女友。 |
| 15 | My dream for the future is to have a loving relationship | 我对未来的梦想是建立爱的关系 |
| 16 | and also a family with Angela. | 还有和安琪拉的一家人 |
| 17 | I think if I'm able to change, | 如果我能改变 |
| 18 | I think she will want me back. | 我想她会要我回来的 |
| 19 | So I just really hope that that is something that can | 所以,我只是真的希望 这是能够 |
| 20 | truly come out of this. | 真正走出这个。 |
| 21 | I think there was always a lack of trust. | 我认为总是缺乏信任。 |
| 22 | I kind of knew his past of lying, talking to other girls. | 我有点知道他的过去 说谎,与其他女孩交谈。 |
| 23 | I come from a pretty broken past | 我来自一个相当破碎的过去 |
| 24 | and I wasn't able to kind of connect with individuals | 我无法与个人联系 |
| 25 | very well. | 不错 |
| 26 | I would look through his phone. | 我会看他的电话 |
| 27 | Eventually, I found things that I didn't expect to see. | 最终,我发现了一些我没想到的东西。 |
| 28 | Messages, photos and videos to other girls. | 给其他女孩的留言、照片和录像 |
| 29 | So I found out that he was cheating on me. | 所以我发现他在欺骗我 |
| 30 | The worst part was the second time that he cheated on me, | 最糟糕的是他第二次欺骗我 |
| 31 | just because I didn't expect it. | 只是因为我没想到。 |
| 32 | And to be honest, it was worse than the first time | 老实说 比第一次还糟 |
| 33 | just because there were so many of them. | 只是因为有这么多人。 |
| 34 | Even though I ended things, | 虽然我结束了事情, |
| 35 | I never really wanted to end things. | 我从来没有真正想要结束的事情。 |
| 36 | It's just, I need to be happy too, you know? | 只是,我也需要快乐,你知道吗? |
| 37 | I don't know. | 师曰. |
| 38 | I mean, if we could get back together | 我的意思是,如果我们可以重新在一起 |
| 39 | and figure it out now, that would be awesome. | 现在想想,那会是真棒。 |
| 40 | We were together for six years. | 我们在一起六年了 |
| 41 | We've been broken up for like three months now. | 我们已经分手了三个月了 |
| 42 | Since we split up, I've been kind of just looking | 自从我们分开之后,我一直在寻找 |
| 43 | more inward and being with my emotions | 更内在 和我的情感 |
| 44 | and just being okay, being alone. | 一个人待着就好 |
| 45 | My goals were like marriage and like having a family. | 我的目标就像结婚和有家庭一样 |
| 46 | I kind of just wanted to keep going. | 我只是想继续走 |
| 47 | She wanted to settle down. | 她想安顿下来。 |
| 48 | I was still active, wanting to go out. | 我仍然很活跃,想出去 |
| 49 | I wouldn't say necessarily I wasn't ready for it, | 我不会说我没有准备好 |
| 50 | but yeah, maybe, okay, I wasn't ready for it. | 但是,也许,好吧,我还没有准备好。 |
| 51 | His priority was the partying. | 他的优先权是派对 |
| 52 | I had had enough of feeling like a second option. | 我受够了那种选择 |
| 53 | I wish I could have listened more. | 我希望我能多听点 |
| 54 | Just heard her out and acted upon what her feelings were. | 刚刚听到她出来 并采取行动 她的感受是什么。 |
| 55 | I think I'd tell her that I wanted to marry her someday. | 我想我会告诉她 我想有一天娶她 |
| 56 | We have a really unique connection | 我们有一个非常独特的联系 |
| 57 | and I think we always did. | 我想我们总是这样 |
| 58 | This could be a way for us to get back together. | 这可能是我们重聚的方式 |
| 59 | I internalized a lot of my problems | 我把很多问题都内化了 |
| 60 | and I never expressed anything | 我从来没有表达过什么 |
| 61 | that I felt like needed to be said. | 我觉得应该说 |
| 62 | I wanted to chase my dreams | 我想追寻我的梦想 |
| 63 | and he just wasn't giving that full 100% energy for me. | 他只是没有给我100%的能量 |
| 64 | Then coupled with the infidelity, he cheated on me. | 再加上不忠 他背叛了我 |
| 65 | I got a message online from some random account. | 我在网上从某个随机账户收到消息 |
| 66 | I sent explicit photos of myself to somebody anonymously | 我给一个匿名的人发了清楚的照片 |
| 67 | and they blackmailed me. | 他们勒索我 |
| 68 | They were sent to me, unfortunately. | 不幸的是,他们被送到我这里。 |
| 69 | He tried to lie his way out of it | 他试图欺骗他的出路 |
| 70 | and eventually came clean to me. | 最终终于向我坦白了 |
| 71 | And yeah, that was it for us. | 是的,这是它给我们。 |
| 72 | Oh yeah. | 对 |
| 73 | I thought I was going to marry him, so yeah. | 我以为我要嫁给他,所以是的。 |
| 74 | I'm nervous about seeing him again. | 我对再见他很紧张 |
| 75 | My hands are a little sweaty, not going to lie. | 我的手有点汗,不会撒谎 |
| 76 | We haven't talked for like two months. | 我们两个月没谈了 |
| 77 | I feel excited but nervous. | 我觉得兴奋但紧张。 |
| 78 | Just say that. | 直说吧 |
| 79 | I didn't even realize that, to be honest. | 老实说,我甚至没有意识到这一点。 |
| 80 | I think I just naturally wanted to be away from him. | 我当然想离开他 |
| 81 | The longer I had to look into his eyes, | 我不得不看着他的眼睛越久 |
| 82 | the more hatred I felt towards him. | 我对他越恨他 |
| 83 | He's really good at reading my emotions through my eyes. | 他真的很擅长通过我的眼睛读我的情绪. |
| 84 | I was sending a hate you through my eyes. | 我从我的眼睛里发出仇恨 |
| 85 | It was hard not to talk, you know, | 很难不说话 |
| 86 | because you obviously have a lot you want to say. | 因为你显然有很多话想说 |
| 87 | We're like the most unserious people, | 我们就像最不认真的人 |
| 88 | you know, especially together. | 你知道,特别是在一起。 |
| 89 | So it's hard not to laugh. | 故难不笑. |
| 90 | It's like I'm looking at the girl | 就像我看着那个女孩 |
| 91 | that I knew when we first talked. | 我知道,当我们第一次谈话。 |
| 92 | And it's just profound. | 且道只是深处. |
| 93 | I felt kind of weird. | 我觉得有点奇怪 |
| 94 | For a long time I wanted to feel wanted by him. | 很久以来,我一直想感觉到他被他通缉 |
| 95 | Now his feelings are all there and I'm kind of like... | 现在他的感情都在那里 而我就像... |
| 96 | I don't know. | 师曰. |
| 97 | It's hard because when someone does something | 这很难 因为当有人做一些事情 |
| 98 | so like catastrophic and blows up your relationship | 所以,像灾难性的,并炸毁 你的关系 |
| 99 | like that, it's hard to see past that thing that they did. | 像这样,很难看到过去的事情 他们做了。 |
| 100 | Watching him kind of like smile and be happy, | 看着他像微笑和快乐一样 |
| 101 | it made me upset. | 这让我心烦意乱 |
| 102 | It's like how can you stand there | 这就像你怎么能站在那里 |
| 103 | and look like that in everything you've put me through? | 你把我弄成这样吗? |
| 104 | It was really hard | 真的很难 |
| 105 | because I didn't really expect her to kind of cry | 因为我没想到她会哭 |
| 106 | when she initially saw me, | 当她最初看到我, |
| 107 | even though I kind of inflicted that much pain on her. | 虽然我给她造成了这么多痛苦 |
| 108 | Suddenly seeing me just kind of standing in front of her, | 突然看见我站在她面前 |
| 109 | I think that brought back a lot of negative emotions initially. | 我认为这最初带来了很多负面的情绪. |
| 110 | But then after she was able to get through those tears, | 但后来在她能渡过这些泪水之后 |
| 111 | we were able to kind of just joke around | 我们只能开玩笑 |
| 112 | and I can tell that she was trying to perk up a smile. | 我看得出来她想笑一笑 |
| 113 | That was really long. | 这真是漫长。 |
| 114 | Jesus, that was the longest three minutes. | 耶稣,那是最长的3分钟。 |
| 115 | Hi. | 顿 |
| 116 | How's it going? | 怎么样? |
| 117 | Not too bad. | 不错 |
| 118 | I was so nervous. | 我很紧张。 |
| 119 | I know. | 我知道,我记得 |
| 120 | I'm going to dance with my hands right now. | 我现在要用手跳舞 |
| 121 | A little flustered, a little anxious, | 有点紧张,有些焦虑, |
| 122 | feeling a lot of things right now. | 现在感觉很多东西 |
| 123 | Having to like look at you | 不得不喜欢你的样子 |
| 124 | was really hard. | 真的很难。 |
| 125 | It just reminded you of a lot of things I did. | 它只是提醒你 很多事情我做了。 |
| 126 | I know how much I hurt you. | 我知道我有多伤害你。 |
| 127 | Do you feel bad seeing me cry? | 看到我哭你觉得难过吗? |
| 128 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 129 | It's always hard seeing you cry, | 看到你哭总是很难的 |
| 130 | especially when it's my own fault. | 特别是我自己的错 |
| 131 | Really? | 真的吗? |
| 132 | Because I think you've seen me cry a lot. | 因为我认为你见过我哭了很多。 |
| 133 | 对 我知道 Yeah, I know. | |
| 134 | So yeah, that's why I say it, | 所以,是的, 这就是为什么我说, |
| 135 | especially when it's my own fault. | 特别是我自己的错 |
| 136 | Sometimes hearing him talk is kind of funny | 有时听到他说话有点好笑 |
| 137 | because I can kind of predict what he's going to say. | 因为我可以预测他会说什么 |
| 138 | The things coming out of his mouth | 他嘴里的东西 |
| 139 | are just things that he thinks he's supposed to say | 只是他觉得他应该说的 |
| 140 | or things that I want to hear. | 或者我想听的东西 |
| 141 | What makes him look better, maybe. | 也许是什么让他看起来更好 |
| 142 | Is it hard to trust what he's saying? | 他说的话很难相信吗? |
| 143 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 144 | Do you miss me being in your bed? | 你想念我在你的床上吗? |
| 145 | I miss being Little Spoon, yeah. | 我想念当小勺子,是的。 |
| 146 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 147 | The next step is we're going to have you | 下一步,我们将有你 |
| 148 | experience a shared memory together. | 一起体验共同的记忆 |
| 149 | 大 Sp,小 Sp. | |
| 150 | Okay. | 摆 |
| 151 | You both talked about taking photos of each other. | 你们俩都说要互相拍照 |
| 152 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 153 | And then you also said you'd do the same thing. | 然后你也说你会做同样的事情。 |
| 154 | Oh yeah, we would switch clothes. | 哦,是的,我们会换衣服。 |
| 155 | You're going to be putting on a shoe sling. | 你要穿上鞋袜 |
| 156 | Okay. | 摆 |
| 157 | We're going to need you to go into a memory. | 我们需要你进入一个记忆。 |
| 158 | Okay. | 摆 |
| 159 | Actually... | 其实... |
| 160 | Oh! | 瓳 |
| 161 | Is that real? | 这是真的吗? |
| 162 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 163 | This is actually the date we broke up. | 这其实是我们分手的日期。 |
| 164 | Yeah, that is very true. | 是的,这是非常正确的。 |
| 165 | What do you think of your outfit? | 你觉得你的衣服怎么样? |
| 166 | I mean, you look so slay. | 我的意思是,你看起来如此杀戮。 |
| 167 | Yeah, I feel a lot more free than I usually do. | 是啊,我觉得更多的自由 比我通常做的。 |
| 168 | What do you like being Little Spoon? | 你喜欢当小勺子吗? |
| 169 | It makes me feel small. | 这让我觉得自己很小。 |
| 170 | We kind of had a routine. | 我们有个例行公事 |
| 171 | We'd go to bed, we'd fall asleep with me as Little Spoon, | 我们上床睡觉 睡得像小勺子 |
| 172 | and then we'd kind of flip-flop back and forth. | 然后我们就会前后翻转 |
| 173 | So doing that again, that was sick. | 所以,再次这样做,那是生病的。 |
| 174 | Enjoy that. | 好好享受这个 |
| 175 | It's comforting. | 慰劳众生. |
| 176 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 177 | Feels normal. | 感觉很正常 |
| 178 | I've missed it. | 我错过了 |
| 179 | What would Chase have to do to get you back? | Chase会怎么做才能让你回来? |
| 180 | If he could just, like, do all the things | 如果他能,喜欢,做所有的事情 |
| 181 | that he said he would do, | 他说他会这样做, |
| 182 | I would love to see my ex in my future. | 我很想见见我的前女友 |
| 183 | My heart's racing. | 我的心在竞速 |
| 184 | I'm not opposed to getting back with her, | 我不反对和她回去 |
| 185 | but I got a lot of work to do on myself | 但我还有好多事要做 |
| 186 | and I got a lot of growing up to do. | 我还有很多事要做 |
| 187 | Aw, this is such a cute one. | 哦,这是这么一个可爱的。 |
| 188 | This is one we were super in love. | 这是我们超爱的 |
| 189 | You ever watch these videos? | 你看过这些视频吗? |
| 190 | No. | 没有 |
| 191 | Oh, really? | 是吗? |
| 192 | Actually, no. | 事实上,没有。 |
| 193 | I literally forgot this video existed. | 我完全忘了这段视频的存在。 |
| 194 | Really? | 真的吗? |
| 195 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 196 | Man. | 伙计 |
| 197 | I would always just kind of watch them alone. | 我会一直看着他们独自一人。 |
| 198 | It was, like, a time when we were both happy. | 那时我们都很开心 |
| 199 | I have never felt like I've been able | 我从来没有感觉 像我已经能够 |
| 200 | to laugh with somebody so much in my life. | 和我生命中的某个人一起笑 |
| 201 | I just, like, was really happy when I was with him. | 我只是,喜欢,真的快乐 当我与他在一起。 |
| 202 | Do you miss moments like this? | 你想念这样的时刻吗? |
| 203 | I think I miss the ignorance | 我想我想念无知 |
| 204 | and, like, the innocence of it. | 和一样,它是无辜的。 |
| 205 | Do you wish that we could go back to this, | 你想让我们回到这个, |
| 206 | or do you... | 还是你... |
| 207 | I think if you didn't cheat on me, | 我认为如果你没有欺骗我, |
| 208 | I would have said no. | 我会说不。 |
| 209 | Okay. | 摆 |
| 210 | But since you did, | 但既然你这么做了 |
| 211 | yeah, I want to go back to that. | 是的,我想回到那个。 |
| 212 | Makes sense. | 说得通 |
| 213 | Yeah, makes sense. | 是啊,这是有道理的。 |
| 214 | I've been seeking other means of help | 我一直在寻求其他的帮助 |
| 215 | so that I know that I'm not alone | 这样我才知道我不是孤独的 |
| 216 | when it comes to this problem | 当涉及到这个问题时 |
| 217 | of consistently lying and hiding the truth. | 他们说谎,而且隐讳真理。 |
| 218 | If it were up to me, | 如果由我决定 |
| 219 | I would say 100%, | 我会说100%, |
| 220 | because I know what I need to do | 因为我知道我需要做什么 |
| 221 | mentally, physically, and emotionally | 精神、身体和情感 |
| 222 | in order to make that happen. | 为了实现这一点。 |
| 223 | How should I pose? | 我该怎么装? |
| 224 | Like a jacket, like a... | 像一件夹克,像... |
| 225 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 226 | These last six months | 过去六个月 |
| 227 | have been the most transformational in my entire life. | 这是我一生中最转型的 |
| 228 | Through the process of this breakup, | 通过这个分手的过程, |
| 229 | I found a lot more sense of peace | 我发现更多的和平感 |
| 230 | and security with who I am. | 并保护我是谁。 |
| 231 | Do you remember our first photo shoot? | 你还记得我们第一次拍照吗? |
| 232 | Um, yes. | 对 |
| 233 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 234 | She was definitely very nervous. | 她肯定非常紧张。 |
| 235 | I think that was one of my favorite things to do | 我想那是我最喜欢做的事之一 |
| 236 | was help her find that level of comfort. | 帮助她找到那种舒适感 |
| 237 | Sexy. | 性爱. |
| 238 | JCPENNI号. | |
| 239 | I don't even feel like the person | 我甚至不觉得 像人 |
| 240 | that I was six months ago. | 我六个月前就已经去世了 |
| 241 | No glasses. | 没有眼镜。 |
| 242 | No. | 没有 |
| 243 | I'm not seeking to fill that hole | 我不是想填补那个洞 |
| 244 | of our last relationship. | 我们最后的关系。 |
| 245 | I like this though. | 不过我喜欢这个 |
| 246 | Yeah, I like this. | 是啊,我喜欢这个。 |
| 247 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 248 | Stay here. | 待在这里 |
| 249 | Definitely not the same person I was | 绝对不是同一个人 |
| 250 | when I was in a relationship with him. | 我和他交往的时候 |
| 251 | This way. | 这边 |
| 252 | I want him to be honest with me | 我要他对我说实话 |
| 253 | and tell me why he did what he did, | 告诉我他为什么要这么做 |
| 254 | how he really feels, | 他真正的感觉 |
| 255 | because I feel like, | 因为我觉得, |
| 256 | at least in private, | 至少在私人场合 |
| 257 | it's very easy for him to lie to me. | 他骗我很容易 |
| 258 | I don't know, | 我不知道,你觉得呢? |
| 259 | I felt almost like a little kid | 我觉得我几乎像个孩子 |
| 260 | when you have a school crush, I guess. | 当你有学校迷恋,我想。 |
| 261 | We wanted kind of different things in our lives. | 我们想要不同的东西 在我们的生活。 |
| 262 | Was that pretty close or... | 是相当接近还是... |
| 263 | Like, half and half. | 喜欢,一半和一半。 |
| 264 | Ish, okay. | 伊什,好吗。 |
| 265 | Ish 对 | |
| 266 | Why did we break up? | 我们为什么要分手? |
| 267 | Because you made a poor decision | 因为你做了一个不好的决定 |
| 268 | and I have too much self-respect | 和我有太多的自尊 |
| 269 | to let certain things happen | 让某些事情发生 |
| 270 | without, like, consequences. | 没有,像,后果。 |
| 271 | I feel like there was just a lot more | 我觉得还有更多 |
| 272 | things taking away from your focus on us. | 事情使你不再关注我们 |
| 273 | It was elsewhere. | 在别处 |
| 274 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 275 | Why did we break up? | 我们为什么要分手? |
| 276 | The lying and the cheating part. | 说谎和作弊 |
| 277 | I think he cheated and lied | 我觉得他骗人骗人 |
| 278 | because he has a lot of deeper-rooted problems. | 因为他有很多根深蒂固的问题 |
| 279 | I was addicted to porn. | 我对色情片上瘾了 |
| 280 | This is why I felt | 这就是为什么我觉得 |
| 281 | as if I had two different lifestyles. | 我好像有两种不同的生活方式 |
| 282 | One was where I was in a relationship with Angela. | 一个是我和安吉拉的关系 |
| 283 | Another was where I was kind of living | 另一个是我住的地方 |
| 284 | in my own little private bubble | 在我自己的私人小泡泡里,我爱她 |
| 285 | that I was able to kind of do whatever I pleased. | 我能够做我喜欢的事 |
| 286 | So... | 所以说... |
| 287 | How do you feel knowing that one decision | 你知道这个决定是什么感觉 |
| 288 | blew up our four years together? | 炸了我们四年在一起? |
| 289 | It still hurts a lot | 还是很疼的 |
| 290 | because I don't think it had to be this way | 因为我不认为 一定是这样 |
| 291 | in order for us to heal. | 以便我们治愈。 |
| 292 | There was still so much good in our relationship | 我们的关系还是那么好 |
| 293 | and I feel like I didn't give myself | 我觉得自己没有给自己 |
| 294 | the chance to do that work with you. | 跟你合作的机会 |
| 295 | And I have to do it by myself. | 我必须自己来 |
| 296 | And you're doing it. | 而你正在这样做。 |
| 297 | The world didn't end. | 世间未尽. |
| 298 | I know. | 我知道,我记得 |
| 299 | Just that one did. | 就是那个 |
| 300 | Did you ever want to marry me? | 你想嫁给我吗? |
| 301 | And what stopped you from proposing? | 是什么让你无法求婚的? |
| 302 | I did want to marry you. | 我确实想娶你 |
| 303 | I don't know. | 师曰. |
| 304 | I guess it was a goal of mine, I suppose. | 我猜这是我的目标 |
| 305 | I wish I had set boundaries | 我希望我定了界限 |
| 306 | because maybe then I wouldn't have invested | 因为也许那样我就不会投资了 |
| 307 | so much of me into the relationship. | 我非常喜欢这段感情 |
| 308 | I told you, like, oh, a ring. | 我告诉过你,像,哦,一个戒指。 |
| 309 | I'll get a ring when I can afford it. | 我买得起就买戒指 |
| 310 | I didn't. | 我没有。 |
| 311 | Maybe I was scared. | 也许我很害怕。 |
| 312 | I don't know if we're going to get back together. | 复有无量众生. |
| 313 | I want to know that he's ready | 我要知道他准备好了 |
| 314 | to take on that kind of commitment | 承担这种承诺 |
| 315 | because six years is a long time with no ring. | 因为六年是漫长的时间 没有戒指。 |
| 316 | Were you happy with my body? | 你对我的身体满意吗? |
| 317 | And am I even your type? | 我是你的菜吗? |
| 318 | Why are you laughing? | 你为什么笑? |
| 319 | I don't know. | 师曰. |
| 320 | I don't want to hear the answer. | 我不想听到答案。 |
| 321 | Obviously, I just compare myself to | 很明显,我只是比较一下自己 |
| 322 | whoever it was that you're talking to | 不管你跟谁说话 |
| 323 | or whoever's photos you were liking. | 或是你喜欢的照片 |
| 324 | And I know that I don't look the same as them. | 我知道我长得跟他们不一样 |
| 325 | Honestly, it makes me feel like shit. | 老实说,这让我感觉像狗屎。 |
| 326 | I always complain that, like, | 我总是抱怨,喜欢, |
| 327 | oh, I don't go to the gym enough | 哦,我不 去体育馆足够 |
| 328 | or, like, oh, I wish I went to the gym more, | 或者,喜欢,哦, 我希望我去了更多的健身房, |
| 329 | but I don't think you realize it's because, | 但我不认为你意识到 这是因为, |
| 330 | like, I feel like my body is not good enough for you | 我觉得我的身体不够好 |
| 331 | and that I needed to become better | 而我需要变得更好 |
| 332 | so that you wouldn't look at other people. | 这样你就不会看别人了 |
| 333 | And I know that you're going to say it's not like that, | 我知道你会说 不是那样的 |
| 334 | but that's, like, the only way that it can make me feel. | 但这是唯一能让我感觉到的方法 |
| 335 | It's hard to kind of trust my word | 很难相信我的话 |
| 336 | and my actions when it comes to it now, | 和我现在的行动, |
| 337 | but I will say that you're beautiful. | 但我会说你很漂亮 |
| 338 | It doesn't matter what you say. | 何等为言. |
| 339 | I know. | 我知道,我记得 |
| 340 | When you say the same things to other people, | 当你对别人说同样的话时 |
| 341 | so it doesn't mean anything. | 所以这不意味着什么。 |
| 342 | At the end of the day, yes, | 最终,是的, |
| 343 | you are my ideal type body-wise, | 你是我理想的身材类型, |
| 344 | mentality-wise, emotion-wise. | 心态 情绪 |
| 345 | That's just generally how I feel when it comes to it. | 说到这个,我总觉得这样 |
| 346 | His response was nothing new. | 他的反应并不新鲜。 |
| 347 | It's what I've already, like, heard or expected, | 这就是我已经,喜欢,听到或期待, |
| 348 | and I think I don't know if I can believe his answer. | 我觉得我不知道能不能相信他的答案 |
| 349 | Do you truly believe | 你真的相信吗? |
| 350 | that we could have a successful relationship in the future? | 将来我们能有一个成功的关系? |
| 351 | No. | 没有 |
| 352 | What would it take for you to say yes? | 你要是答应怎么办? |
| 353 | I have a hard time looking past what happened | 我很难回顾过去的事 |
| 354 | and I'd have to see an evolved version of you. | 我不得不看到一个进化的版本 你。 |
| 355 | I respect that because I know in myself | 我尊重这一点,因为我知道我自己 |
| 356 | that I'm not quite that person | 我不是那个人 |
| 357 | that I want to be. | 我想成为。 |
| 358 | I do hope that one day | 我希望总有一天 |
| 359 | that I am that person not just for you, but for myself. | 我不仅是为你 而是为自己 |
| 360 | Do you still love me? | 你还爱我吗? |
| 361 | Yes. | 对 |
| 362 | And I really hope that through change | 我真的希望通过改变 |
| 363 | I'm able to dictate that | 我可以决定 |
| 364 | and start building trust up once again. | 并重新开始建立信任。 |
| 365 | Do you still love me? | 你还爱我吗? |
| 366 | I don't want to. | 我不想这样 |
| 367 | It just sucks because no matter what you did | 这太糟了,因为不管你做了什么 |
| 368 | or how you treat me or how you will continue to treat me, | 或者你如何对待我 或者你如何继续对待我 |
| 369 | I feel like I can't help but love you. | 觉无不爱. |
| 370 | I just let you treat me like shit, | 我只是让你把我当狗屎, |
| 371 | but I still would abuse you. | 但我还是会虐待你 |
| 372 | Sometimes the pros outweigh the cons. | 有时利大于弊。 |
| 373 | I think, sometimes I think to myself, | 我想,有时我想我自己, |
| 374 | like, would I be OK with him continuing to do it | 喜欢,我会同意他继续这样做 |
| 375 | as long as I could be with him? | 只要我能和他在一起吗? |
| 376 | And I don't know the answer to that, | 我不知道答案是怎样的 |
| 377 | but sometimes I lean towards yes, | 但有时我倾向于是, |
| 378 | as long as he's in my life, I'm OK with it. | 只要他在我的生活中, 我同意这一点。 |
| 379 | If I asked you to marry me, | 如果我向你求婚的话 |
| 380 | what do you think you would have said? | 你觉得你会说什么? |
| 381 | Like when? | 什么时候? |
| 382 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 383 | A year ago. | 一年前,我刚说 |
| 384 | I would have said yes. | 我会答应的 |
| 385 | Would you say yes now? | 你现在答应了吗? |
| 386 | Like right now in this moment? | 就像现在这样? |
| 387 | Right now. | 现在 |
| 388 | I don't know. | 师曰. |
| 389 | Surprise. | 惊叹曰. |
| 390 | Don't do that. | 别这样 |
| 391 | If he was to propose to me right then and there, | 如果他要向我求婚,现在和那里, |
| 392 | I probably would have said yes, | 我大概会答应的 |
| 393 | but then we probably would have had to talk a lot about it. | 但是我们可能不得不 谈论了很多。 |
| 394 | You know, there's a lot of trust that needs to be rebuilt, | 你知道,有很多信任 需要重建, |
| 395 | but yeah, I still see my life with him. | 是的,我还看到他的生活 |
| 396 | How are you both feeling right now? | 你们现在感觉怎么样? |
| 397 | Sweaty. | 柔软. |
| 398 | Giddy. | 吉迪,你好吗? |
| 399 | Next, you two are going to kiss. | 接下来,你们两个要亲吻。 |
| 400 | You both consent to it. | 你们都同意了 |
| 401 | You two are comfortable with it. | 你们俩很自在 |
| 402 | OK. | 摆 |
| 403 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 404 | I was nervous because I don't think we've ever really | 我紧张是因为我不认为我们真的 |
| 405 | kissed much in front of people, let alone a camera. | 在人们面前吻了很多次 更别说相机了 |
| 406 | Going into it, I was scared, but someone excited. | 我当时很害怕,但有人激动 |
| 407 | I was wondering if I would feel anything | 我在想我会不会感觉到什么 |
| 408 | or if it would change my mind in any way. | 或者它会改变我的想法 以任何方式。 |
| 409 | I just feel my heart racing, | 我只是觉得我的心在竞速 |
| 410 | getting almost like a giddy, like a kid again. | 变得几乎像一个娘娘腔, 像一个孩子再次。 |
| 411 | There's a lot of emotion on my end, you know, | 我这边有很多情绪 |
| 412 | because when you break up with somebody, | 因为当你和某人分手时 |
| 413 | you don't expect to see them, you don't expect to kiss them, | 你不希望看到他们, 你不希望吻他们, |
| 414 | to hold them. | 来抱住他们 |
| 415 | You kind of assume that that's going to be it, | 你有点假设 这将是它, |
| 416 | but you know, it wasn't. | 但你知道,这不是。 |
| 417 | First, I was really hesitant towards it, | 首先,我真的很犹豫 |
| 418 | but I feel like when we started kissing, | 但我觉得我们开始接吻的时候 |
| 419 | it felt very natural and it felt nice, | 感觉很自然,感觉很好 |
| 420 | so I wanted to keep kissing, | 所以我想继续接吻, |
| 421 | but then my mind was like, what are you doing? | 但我的头脑就像, 你在干嘛? |
| 422 | You're not supposed to be doing this. | 你不应该这样做。 |
| 423 | Was that six seconds? | 那是六秒钟吗? |
| 424 | Yeah, the kiss was good. | 是啊,吻是不错的。 |
| 425 | It just felt good, it felt right, it felt normal. | 感觉很好,感觉对,感觉正常 |
| 426 | We've done it a million times, | 我们做了一百万次, |
| 427 | but with this one, it just felt different. | 但用这个,它只是感觉不同。 |
| 428 | Confused. | 困惑 |
| 429 | Do a little part of you not want to feel anything? | 有一点你不想感觉到什么? |
| 430 | Yeah, it would be easier that way, | 是啊,这样比较容易 |
| 431 | if I could just turn off the emotions and hard stop it. | 如果我能把情绪关掉 并努力阻止它。 |
| 432 | How did that feel? | 感觉怎么样? |
| 433 | Did you like kissing me? | 你喜欢吻我吗? |
| 434 | Yeah, it felt nice. | 是啊,感觉不错。 |
| 435 | Can I kiss you again? | 我能再吻你一次吗? |
| 436 | If you want to. | 若欲尔. |
| 437 | Feeling her lips and feeling her so close to me | 摸摸她的嘴唇 摸摸她那么亲近我 |
| 438 | was an amazing experience. | 是一个惊人的经历。 |
| 439 | Hopefully that sparked a little bit more love. | 希望这能激起更多的爱 |
| 440 | It feels nice. | 感觉不错 |
| 441 | Okay, that's enough. | 好了,够了。 |
| 442 | Do you think we can get back together? | 你觉得我们能复合吗? |
| 443 | It's hard to answer right now. | 即今难答. |
| 444 | I think we still need to spend some time apart | и稱и临惠璶ㄇ丁 |
| 445 | and go where we're going. | 和去我们要去的地方。 |
| 446 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 447 | Is it more of a maybe right now? | 现在可能更像吗? |
| 448 | It's not a no. | 这不是一个不。 |
| 449 | It's just a not right now. | 这只是一个不 现在。 |
| 450 | Yeah. | 对 |
| 451 | So when is it? | 什么时候? |
| 452 | Yeah, when is it? | 是啊,什么时候? |
| 453 | Well, you broke up with me, so I respect your decision. | 你跟我分手了 所以我尊重你的决定 |
| 454 | You know, I still got my stuff that I need to work on | 你知道,我仍然有我的东西 我需要工作 |
| 455 | and I feel like if we're to rush into it too quick, | 我觉得如果我们太匆忙了 |
| 456 | then we'd just be setting ourselves up for failure. | 那样我们就会为失败陷害自己 |
| 457 | Yeah, I agree. | 是的,我同意,我同意这个说法。 |
| 458 | If you could say anything to Chase, what would you say? | 如果你能对蔡斯说些什么 你会说什么? |
| 459 | I love you. | 我爱你 |
| 460 | And I did feel like we were back in a relationship. | 我确实觉得我们重归于好 |
| 461 | I hope this is all going to be worth it in the end. | 我希望这一切最终都值得 |
| 462 | You can be honest. | 你可以老实说 |
| 463 | Do you still want to get back together? | 你还想重聚吗? |
| 464 | I obviously know what I want. | 我显然知道我想要什么。 |
| 465 | I feel like you know what I want. | 我觉得你知道我想要什么 |
| 466 | I think I'm in a position where I am wanting her | 我觉得我的处境是我想要她 |
| 467 | a lot more than she wants me. | 比她想要的还多 |
| 468 | I feel like I'm very protective of myself right now | 我觉得我现在很保护自己 |
| 469 | and I think it would take a lot for me to | 我觉得我需要很多时间 |
| 470 | agree to get back together with him. | 同意跟他复合 |
| 471 | Yes. | 对 |
| 472 | But not right now. | 但现在不行 |
| 473 | You need to do some work on yourself. | 你需要做一些关于你自己的工作。 |
| 474 | Yup, I agree. | 没错,我同意。 |
| 475 | I definitely think there's a possibility of us | 我肯定觉得我们有可能 |
| 476 | getting back together, but that all depends on him. | 重归于好,但这一切都取决于他。 |
| 477 | He's actually going to change. | 他实际上会改变。 |
| 478 | I truly felt hurt for what I did | 我真的为我所做的感到难过 |
| 479 | and it kind of pushes me to work harder | 这让我更努力工作 |
| 480 | to fix myself, not only with the communication, | 不仅在沟通方面 |
| 481 | the lying aspect, but also making sure | 谎言,但也确保 |
| 482 | that she feels confident about who she is | 她对自己是谁充满信心 |
| 483 | because I know how confident she can be | 因为我知道她有多自信 |
| 484 | and I know how beautiful and strong of a woman she is | 我知道她是多么美丽和坚强的女人 |
| 485 | and I just want her to also feel that as well. | 我只希望她也能有这种感觉 |
| 486 | He has to change himself pretty much completely | 他必须彻底改变自己 |
| 487 | and I don't know if he has the willpower | 我不知道他有没有意志力 |
| 488 | in him to do that. | 在他这样做。 |
| 489 | Would you want to get back together with me after that? | 之后你想跟我复合吗? |
| 490 | No. | 没有 |
| 491 | Anger. | 愤怒 |
| 492 | I'd like to apologize. | 我想向你道歉。 |
| 493 | I'd just like to apologize for | 我想为我道歉 |
| 494 | hiding myself from you. | 躲着你 |
| 495 | I'm just sorry for letting those parts of me hurt you | 对不起,我伤害了你 |
| 496 | the way they did. | 就像他们那样 |
| 497 | I was honestly proud of him for crying. | 我为他哭而自豪 |
| 498 | It's just a testament to his growth. | 只是证明他的成长 |
| 499 | I wasn't necessarily a safe space for you. | 我对你来说不一定安全 |
| 500 | There are versions of me that I am very not proud of. | 有些版本的我并不骄傲。 |
| 501 | I really appreciate hearing that from you | 我真的很感激你这么说 |
| 502 | and I see a lot of growth | 我看到许多增长 |
| 503 | that you've done over these few months too. | 你在这几个月里也做了 |
| 504 | I can tell her confidence radiates off of her. | 我可以告诉她她的信心 散射她。 |
| 505 | Does it worry you that I seem more confident? | 你觉得我比较自信吗? |
| 506 | Maybe a little bit. | 也许有一点。 |
| 507 | It should. | 应该 |
| 508 | I mean, you're not mine anymore | 我的意思是,你已经不是我的了 |
| 509 | and you could go anywhere. | 你可以去任何地方。 |
| 510 | I do forgive him. | 我原谅他 |
| 511 | It's just the line between forgiveness | 只是宽恕之间的界限 |
| 512 | and getting back together is like, | 和重新在一起就像, |
| 513 | those are kind of two separate things to me. | 这些对我来说是两件事 |
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